Pondering…I AM

One of my favorite activities is pondering.

In the mornings, before I get out of bed, I ponder how my day should be organized.  While brushing my teeth, I ponder:  What should I wear? How  should I arrange my waist-length hair? Is that really a zit on my chin?  At my age?  How is my husband feeling today? What is the meaning of I AM? How does a camera shutter work?  Does the cat’s litter box need cleaning? Is the dog ready for his walk?…

Wait!  What?  The meaning of I AM?

Hmmmmnnnnnnnn….and so the pondering, meditating, contemplating, ruminating begins…

From the Biblical standpoint, I AM is the name of God as revealed to Moses:  I Am That I Am.

Who is the God that did the revealing?  How did Moses know it was God’s revelation and not just voices inside his head?

I don’t know.  I wasn’t there,  I don’t know Moses’s experience, and I have no scholarly credentials upon which to base any suppositions of such an event.  However, what Joel Goldsmith says in his Spiritual Interpretation of Scripture, the second paragraph on page 18, resonates loud and clear with me.  Goldsmith says:

“From the moment that Moses realized ‘I AM THAT I AM’ he was master of every situation, a leader of men.  He knew then that life is not a physical experience, but is expressed as states and stages of consciousness and that progress is always from the lowest to the highest, to the realization that I am eternal life.”  [Note:  Italics for emphasis are mine.]

So, according to Goldsmith, Moses realized “I AM THAT I AM.” No body told him. No body told him because God is not an exterior entity or being, corporeal or not, God is “I AM THAT I AM” or, in its short form, “I AM.”

Do this now: 

Say to yourself:  I AM.

Close your eyes, say it again:  I AM.

What do you notice?

Jot it down.

Now, proceed with reading this if you are still so inclined.

The first time I read that phrase, “Moses realized,” I had a profound feeling of release….aaaahhhhhh….as if I’d been holding my breath my whole life to hear the words describing what I’ve always known to be true:  that I AM God.  Wow!  If you’ve just done the above exercise, I am confident that you’ve had a similar experience because each and every one of us, as a Perfect Expression of the Divine, IS God.

So, the meaning of I AM is I am God.

Okay, then! Enough pondering for now…I’m sure there will be more in due course…


Aloha And Shalom!

For the past decade (almost), it has been my pleasure to get together with a wonderful group of people, my hula ‘ohana (family), to learn the intricacies and delights of hula, and, mostly, to share the spirit of aloha.

The Hawai’ian language is very nuanced.  The word “aloha,” for example, encompasses many shades of meaning.  On the surface, the spirit of aloha conveys the feelings of welcoming, of love, of well-being.  It is all of these meanings, and it also means “charity,” “mercy,” “grace,” “regards,” “devotion,” “affection,” and the list goes on.  When you are embraced in the spirit of aloha, you are welcomed and held in the Oneness of Being, the “knowing” that we are all One, the “home” that we all long for.

Coconut bras and grass skirts stereotypes notwithstanding, hula is about worshiping and honoring the ‘aina, the land, which is synonymous with Self in the Hawai’ian culture.  The land, the sea, the sky, the winds, the trees, these are all part of the hula vocabulary and symbols of the inextricable connection between humans and nature.

Every month I get together with my hula sisters to dance hula, have a pu-pu (appetizers) at Chef Yu, catch up with one another and, in general, share our mana’o (ideas, thoughts, beliefs) and aloha.  Like any family we have our disagreements and our share of tempests in teacups.   Like any family, we always know we can count on one another in our moments of joy and celebration as well as in our times of sorrow.

Recently, we had the chance to celebrate our hula sister Ka’hea’s conversion to Judaism.  Ka’hea was so named by us because she is the one who is always reminding us which ka’hea (verse) we are dancing in a mele (chant). While I’m still trying not to stumble over my own feet, Ka’hea’s clear reminder of the ka’hea we’re dancing keeps me on track. So on the occasion of her conversion ceremony, her hula sisters came to embrace her in the spirit of aloha while Ka’hea embraced the spirit of shalom into her life. We all stood in a circle around her – her hula sisters, her choir sisters, her biological sisters, her Rabbi, her new congregation – and listened while Ka’hea stated clearly and movingly how much it means to her to be welcomed into the Jewish faith and community she has so lovingly chosen.  And her Rabbi spoke about how important it was for Ka’hea to see all the strands of her long and varied life represented at that life-changing ceremony.

It was a gift for me to witness the solidarity of all of Ka’hea’s friends and family standing together in shalom and aloha on the threshold of this new adventure she has embarked on.  I was once again reminded that no matter what our beliefs may be, we are all One.

Remembrance of Self – How do you do it?

Rituals and ceremonies are an important part of our lives.Weddings, baptisms, graduations, initiation ceremonies, family traditions.  Each one of these marks an occasion of significance, an achievement, a commitment.  Most of all, they are a remembrance: a remembrance of what has lead us to this moment, and then the ritual in and of itself becomes a remembrance for the rest of our lives of all the things the ceremony represents.

Rites and rituals in every day life could be characterized as routines, schedules, plans, which still amount to remembrance:  remembering to do the “stuff” in our life/play.

Remembrance of ourselves as the Perfect Expression of Self Unfolding Perfectly is key to the practice of holding Truth, not just for our individual selves and loved ones, but for all of us since we are all One.

What are some of the rites, rituals, customs, ceremonies that you have/use to help you maintain that remembrance?

I am all eyes and ears, dear ones, awaiting your sharings!


Frequently, I hear people saying they’d love to have the time to meditate, but who can sit still for so long?  There is a perception that meditation, proper meditation, can only happen while seated in the Lotus position, intoning an ancient mantra.

My most profound meditations happen when my attention is focused, often on not chopping off my fingers while I’m cooking.  Or when I’m walking our dog along Riverside Drive.  Or while I’m knitting.

Meditation – it can happen anywhere, anytime…how have you experienced meditation?